Lots To Write

Ok here it is.

I tried to stop taking Vicodin but unfortunately I wasn't ready yet to do so. My boyfriend and I had started fighting a lot, and I had both my children for Christmas so he yelled at me on Christmas Eve and I packed the kids up, jumped in the car and headed over to My Sister's. We had plans to go over there together, but I was so appauled I had to leave my house. I didn't want to fight or my children to be around fighting especially at Christmas. So let's see, I got a hotel room for a couple of nights (but then started running out of money) so I stayed at my friends house. I hadn't seen her for a year and a half, so her and I took shots of liquid vicodin, and played the never ending 6 day game of Rummy and Phase 10.

My bfriend had turned off my cell phone and our home phone wasn't working. He was very afraid that I was going to leave him and he called me and told me to come get my things and to move out. I told him I wasn't going to come home anytime soon, and that I wasn't going to take his shit anymore. Other than him yelling everything is good, but I can't be around someone like that. I already have major mood swings and it just doesn't mix right with me.

I had lots of fun with my girl, I didn't even put makeup on or anything the whole week. I wasn't out to find another man, nor was I about to party. I love my bfriend a lot and him and I will get married someday, I know that. I had to teach him a lesson. He got it. So now I am home and everything is ok for now. I am really sick today too, so I feel like shit. I also have to drive my son home tonight and the weather is horrible.

My kids had a great Christmas and I had a great time visiting my friends. Taking time for myself and not just reacting. I was able to think about what I wanted. I really want my bfriend. He understands me like noone and he loves me and I love him.